Failing Health

February 5th

Run to God! Run from evil!

Your body will glow with health,
    your very bones will vibrate with life! (MSG) Proverbs 3:5-12 excerpt

I have bucked the trend and come out as an extreme. This is not surprising. I expected this. Two and a half years ago I spoke to a good friend and mentor and said this would probably be where the journey ended. They replied, “No! That is your past. Now you will pass this test.”


I have been holding onto that sentence for two and a half years. But today I discovered that I am not in the normal limits.

Praise the Lord!

I am uniquely made.


I expected my unhealthy past to skew the results because the questions were about the past and present. I expected that although I knew I was healed there would be some remnant of unhealthiness that would make me unacceptable.

But that is not what has happened.

A normal distribution curve has a lot of “normal” people in it and then at each end, there are rare cases. I am a rare case.

I think I should take the results at face value rather than as the computer decided.


Actually, I am freakishly healthy and the computer did not like this one bit. The computer said “No!”

The computer said “people cannot be this healthy”

The computer was not happy at all.

So the test is voided, I failed.

Not because I am a psychopath or sociopath or have some other mental health disorder that makes me unsuitable.

But because the computer cannot handle the Holy Spirit healing a person.

I have been healed enough to make me a useful vessel for God to use, the scars still show because they are useful.

I know I failed the computer’s test but I came out of the results beaming because it was confirmation of what I know to be true.

Computers cannot compute the intervention of the Holy Spirit, God is bigger than computers.

I mean if he is going to put moonbows in the sky and rainbows on dots of clouds, there has to be a reason.

I could retake the test, but I believe the results will be the same, it was my gut reaction to the questions and I took half the time allocated, I didn’t pore over the questions I just answered them bam, bam, bam.

I am a kintsugi vessel, remade – scars showing, ready for use, fit for purpose and changing all the time.

Computers don’t know everything. God does.


Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he’s the one who will keep you on track.
Don’t assume that you know it all.
Run to God! Run from evil!
Your body will glow with health,
your very bones will vibrate with life!
Honour God with everything you own;
give him the first and the best.
Your barns will burst,
your wine vats will brim over.
But don’t, dear friend, resent God’s discipline;
don’t sulk under his loving correction.
It’s the child he loves that God corrects;
a father’s delight is behind all this.

Proverbs 3:5-12 (MSG)