avoiding the cup

 I just couldn't pretend
that all was well
"tickety boo"
and I avoided the cup
I wanted to scream and shout
and jump up and down
My prayer life suddenly
precisely vile and lent

thank God he is bigger
than any self-pitying
tantrum I could raise.
I thank God that he is bigger
in love for me than I

I thank God for the guy
and for the flick on the back of my head.
I thank God and crawl
to turn over the page